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It's incredible how time passes and I just realised that its almost a year since I wrote this song, and yet its taken me this long to finally put it up!
You know where I am now?
Sydney!
Ha ha ha! You remember when I said "all good things come to those who wait?" well it seems that thing came waaaaaaay sooner than expected.
Here I am chugging away in my little home town, trying to make video clips, write songs and self promote, all the while being totally involved in the family committments of ma church youthgroup and music team... and I get this sense of peace. Like "yeah this is cool, I love this town, I love these people and I love this life." I think it took ages for me to come to that but I must say that it was a choice. A choice to be content. Someone said to me, if you're not happy where you are, with what you have... you'll never be happy anywhere. True words.
So, I was happy and content, finally. And that's when it all changed. I got inot the Australian Institute of Music with 2.5 weeks til I had to start, and moved over in two weeks.
My poor mother, said it was quite traumatic! And she was right! I was sooooo shocked to begin with, I wasn't sure if I could ever love this huge city where people smacked you with their bags and umbrellas and didn't think twice, where the gum is like raindrops on the pavement, and it costs $700 just to register your car!
I was, admittadly... miserable.
Yes, I'm being honest here, so love it or leave it. But, day 18 and I'm sittin on the bus next to this cute 16 blonde highschooler with ipod and bag fastened tightly to her body. Going through my head at this point... "the bus is stuffy, this man in front of me is yelling and he stinks, I have a bad headache and I have too much to do when I get home." How could ANYONE like this place? LOL!
I had a sudden change of heart. The stinky, yellly man in front of me looked over to the young girl as he was talking on his phone and asked for a pen. She pulled one out, easily. Then he said rashly "paper, paper!" and she rips some out of her book and slightly damages the other papers. Then he says "lean on... something to lean on," and with a little understanding smirk, she relents to his tug on her school file.
He returned the pen and thanked her and she returned with a smile.
That's when it hit me...
If this young girl who can be friendly to a stinky demanding old man on the bus, and still laugh at the end of it, then why can't I? I'm here after all. Nothing is changing there. So I may as well find the joy in my circumstances. I may as well laugh at the silly things and smile as much as possible. Then maybe I'll brighten someone else's day. Yes. I can:)
Lydia and AdeleHey! Soooo, here is whats coming up! I will be supporting the Lydia Band from USA, I'd love to have your support, contact me for tickets :D Here's a Little blurb :) It has a little cover but the lovely Adele, "Someone like You." Happy New Year dear friends! x
The WeekSup Peeps?! I'm soooo excited, I feel like what's almost 4 years of busking paid off this week with an incredible day last Tuesday. I was busking away in the city with Melly-moo... aka ma sister, when lo and behold, Ernie Dingo waltzes past and chucks in a five-ah. As me and Mel are singing and feeling rather dumb founded that the ol fella works right here in our city, a random guy pulls me aside and says... "do you remember a song you sung a few weeks back, something about pieces and life and stuff? I'll give tiy $5 if you can sing it." Sing it!? I Wrote it!! I was so stoked! I sang him "Pieces of Me" Then, jumped in a lady with awesome purple hair and with a gift she says "I've heard you before, you are amazing." Ok, so I'm not trying to toot my own horn, but I just felt soooo overwhelmed that people are so loving and generous. Here I am, busting ma voice out across, what seems, an endless sea of people running in all directions, feeling, at times, mostly overlooked as 'another street busker trying to raise a lil buck.' YET, some people are listening. In all these years of busking, today it felt like I scratched the surface of being a little more than just a random performer. It's tough some days with trying to make a dent in this industry that is so huge and pretty crowded. But it goes back to the conviction I have, deep in my heart, that if you do what you were made to do with a heart not to make yourself big, but to bless others, then sooner or later, people will stop and listen. They'll stop and go... what have they got? So don't stop singing. Even when you feel like no one listens. The gentlemen who asked for "Pieces of Me" finished off with saying "thankyou, thats my song of the moment, it really means alot to me." I'm so glad I had the chance to sing it to him:) A little BrunoHey everyone! So its been a while. Well this confirms that I am indeed, not that brilliant when it comes to blogging... ha ha, but, hey! I am here aren't I? So what's new? Lots of new things! A few weeks ago, I went out and purchased a beautiful new camera to start filming, and have been experimenting with that. Yes, I did do a little film and photography in high school, but things have changed fairly dramatically in those four years and so I'm re-learning a whole lot:) I've also been working with guitar teacher "Phil" here in Busselton... which has been amazing because he's been teaching me about ways to make my songs richer and trying to get me into my grooooove.... ha ha, not as easy as it sounds! On the 18th of August I did my first full original concert, where I had to come up with 2 hours worth of original content. Admittedly I had to throw in a few covers. All of a sudden I realised.... I have quite a few songs, but perhaps not enough! So I am developing a few... perhaps another album or EP would be appropriate sometime soon? I'm listening to Burberry Acoustic lately... seriously, youtube it coz I'm in awe! The stuff people come up with when they have nothing but a eucelele, shakers and glocks is insane!! Mmmmm *happy sigh* :) None the less, life, though living and working from home (for the moment), has definitely been full:) I'm really trying to expand my bounds, taking every opportunity to experiment with new ideas. Its incredible how much you grow when you set your mind to it. Being around creative people and loving people is one of the best ways to expand your artistic bounds. I meet a lot of people and a lot of characters! You wouldn't believe who I meet when playing in front of crowds or singing in the streets... or perhaps you can? "You should go on X factor/Aussie idol/Australia's got Talent," "My friend is a _________, and he has heaps of connections, you should contact him," or "I am about to do a ________, and you'd make the perfect_________." Ha ha, its funny what some people say, really, sometimes I just don't know hey! But sometimes in life you meet people, who remind you of yourself. They have this secret understanding of you. They don't try and make you what they want you to be, but in big or small ways, challenge you to be better, more adventurous, less fearful. Just a better you. Y'know? I am glad for those friends. People who give you ideas and inspiration. They make you feel most like who you're supposed to be:) Here's to people who love you, "just the way you are!" ;) God View - Blogging attempt No.3Do you ever get that feeling that something is never going to end? You know, the awkward moment when something just doesn't go away, just doesn't get better or just doesn't....end? Ha ha... is it too personal to say that, that is me at the moment? I think I have always been one to believe there's an answer. I am confident in the big fella upstairs knows what he's doing... but its the waiting that kills. I was watching last Lord of the Rings movie, and it was that part when Erowin meets Aragorn in the tavern, handing him a beer and looking for something from him. A glint, a smirk or something to show her that he wants her. I kept barking at Aragorn in the movie "go on, kiss her, give her something." But he doesn't. He never does. Admission. I'm very impatient. I hate waiting just as much as I hate a burnt coffee or being woken up in the middle of a really cool dream. If I were Erowin, I would have given up hope long before she did. But she didn't. She didn't go crazy, rant or rave and throw her sword into anything unmentionable. Ha ha. Nope, something in her trusted. Or at least hoped... Hoped that one day, when these things were all over, something beautiful would happen. Well you know what they say... good things come to those who wait. Wait she did. And what resulted surprised me. Instead of winning the love of a man who was obviously irretrievably besotted with another woman, she won the heart of someone who would love her with all he had, a man that needed her and, though she never knew, she needed too. And I think that's it. I think we get anxious about our situations of seemingly unchanging, unmovable struggles, because we look at it with eyes that see now. We give up so quickly because we see whats only momentary. But life isn't always the here and now. The sun gets up tommorrow. A new (different) day exists. A new kind of situation. Not what is, and not what has been, but something that is totally, undeniably different from any other day. Sometimes unimaginable. As for when things get better, I don't know. Call me crazy, but that's why I believe in God. Or should I say, that's why I want to know God... because, who else knows better than Him?
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